It really feels like  summer now. Oh you know, the sleeping in, hanging out at the house most of the day, staying out late. All the same ol'. Except this summer is unlike any of the others, because im not going back to junior high, or high school in august. Eh, so wierd. There was a block party here in town yesterday, and the last band at 10 pm was this awesome reggae  band called Uproot. They are so good, and reggae dancing is the best. Lol, my friends dad is a singer for the band, and we talked each other into going up on stage and dancing with the band. It was great. Oooh and I got a free shirt too. Oh ! and i saw the Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants too. Its so good, for all you girls out there. big label "C" for Chick Flick! hehe. But anywhoo, time for the weekend woop woop, yall have fun now!

  Kaysh

I graduated last night. We all went to grad nite after that too, at 7:00 this morning, i finally went to sleep.As I was getting ready to give my friend Sasha a ride home from grad nite at 5 am, we realized the sun was coming ip and we decided to get coffee and watch the sunrise. And on my drive home i decided that it was perfect outside for a trail ride, and it was fully bright outside then too. So i went on a bareback ride on Connie in the wonderful morning weather. That was from 6 am- 6:45 am.

 I went through alot of emotions, and well, non-emotions yesterday. It was really strange. Most of the day i went through void of any emotion. But after accepting the fact that my Dad and brother werent coming, and then finding out my brother had been planning on coming and supirsing me but didnt because Dad wasnt coming, I almost cried. But I got over it and on with the rest of my day. Then after I got my bracelet, graduation present stuff from Mom and my stepdad I went to the school at 6:30 pm, friday night to prepare for graduation, and was completely void of emotion there most of the time too. It wasnt until we lined up and started  walking out of the gym that it hit me, and i started getting anxious to go. I was hopping around and dancing  and what not. So I finally walked the line.I graduated with many cheers from my many fans, and mom and stepdad. Afterwards was a swarm of hugs, pictures, sooo muych flash photography, and congratulations. More than ive ever had. But during the ceremony , as the valedvictorian and class president and what not  read their speeches describing my feelings exactly, I got scared excited and anxious to go to college. THey helped me remember my first day of high school, a scared, wide eyed freshman walking out of the bookstore wondering if it was cool or not to have my Mom there with me. It was such a trip.Then, this year, senior year I think/though about how fast those four uears really went, and how confident I was first day, senior year thinking, "Ive done all this so many times, im on top,  a senior, so live it up." ANd now its all done, all gone by so quickly. Finito, High school is over in a puff of smoke, er more like faerie dust and im off to big school, er a University in August. I graduated, im done, i walked the line. Time to grow up, and face the real, adult, world. Time to cry, time to be strong,  time to suck it up. Congratulations Class of 2005!!!!!

Oops! I didnt update for a few days. Ive been out with Nate like every night, its finals! I mean, common give me a break. haha. BUT, now finals are done. I only had two days worth, 4 classes, two classes a day, we got out at 10:45. It was GREAT. But today is 5th and 6th period finals, so I dont have to go. I just have to pick dany up and see what nate is up do. nate is my boufriend, did i say that?  yeah the same one ive had since ... April 22. heheh yay! But anywhoo, last time im setting foot at my school as a high school student there is Friday for the graduation walk the line yada yada crap. Woohoo. Oh im excited. lol. Its not that big of a deal, im not even that excited. Maybe because it was always just... known that i was gonna graduate ya know? there was never a question about it, like some kids have. All you have to do to pass high school is show up and turn some stuff in. its not hard at all. Americas standards are too low i think. I just hope i wasnt spoiled too much for college. haha im soo worried! I know they wont spoil me as much.

My Orientation at CSU is June 19 & 20. Flyin up to Colorado for a few days. Guys, what do i do with my boyfriend? He knows when im moving up to Colorado (August) but we just dont talk about it. I think we think if we dont talk about it, its like we can just forget about it. Poor guy. Ill be back home for christmas and what not i think... dont know if my dad will be too happy about that though, since he lives up there. But he doesnt seem to want to have any contact with me right now. He never answers his cell, and lately wont even email me. bachhhh weirdo.

My trip to Europe is coming up sooo quick, im gettting nervous! Only because its going to be a bit tough to get there by switching flights and switching airlines all the way! Yikes! to get it really cheap we had to get all different airlines there, so i have to pick up and re check in my luggage somewhere else in every airport, and usually probably walk to the other side of the airport, and do this all in time to make my next flight. I hope i can find everything. Im so scurred. and ill be all bymself. anywhoo. THats all for today. Gotta go shower and what not. ttyl!

  Kaysh

Yikes guys, all of a sudden i got all sick. It was like, saturday night all of a sudden. I remember getting up to go to the restroom, in the middle of the night, and i couldnt walk right, it was like i was drunk and i was all wobbly. I beleive i ran into the wall at one point. Saturday morning i couldnt walk real well either, all my muscles were just so weak, and my nost was all congested, and i had a terrible headache. This morning was the weirdest, because i got up all early because i couldnt sleep anymore, and while i was in the kitchen getting some water to take some pills, i started to feel really sick, and as i ... for some reason started to walk to the table, im not sure exactly what happened if i passed out or if my legs gave out to what, but i hit my head on the counter and fell on the floor. its so weird! now ive got a nice bump on my forhead. But i remember laying there on the kitchen floor at like 6 am, thinkin what on earth did i just do. I cant  beleive i actually just fell. and dropped the cup i was holding. I dunno it was just very strange.

Its the last week of normal school, next week is finals, yikes. i hope i start to feel better soon, i wont be able to concentrate on anything. Aw and its my boyfriends birthday. Im not going to be very good company tonight if we go out and do anything. I feel bad. Hes 18!

Today was an awesome day.  Unfortunatly for Dany and I, both of our boyfriends are out of town today, but I think it was kinda good for us. We both sorta get wrapped up in doing stuff with them, we dont go out and do our girly stuff as much. But we started off with our trip to Dany's exchange organizations meeting, where I got to see all the awesome exchange students again. That was up in Phoenix, then we came back and went to her drama people's pool party BBQ thing. Then we went and saw Miss Congeneality 2, which i REALLY liked alot. And it was just the two of us. hehe, we have so much fun when its just the two of us. But dont get me wrong, when we both have our boyfriends with us we both have a great time as well. Double dating, its a great thing. Anywhoo, check out this lady from the movie, shes so cool! Like, a new hero. shes the one one the left, in the blue.

Look at those arm muscles! Shes gotta lift weights. hehe i would know.Crazy, my neck is starting to look kinda like that.

shes so cool! haha.

I only have one more week of regular school, then a week of finals, then im out. Yikes, hard to beleive.

 Kaysh